Storying my self: negotiating a relational identity in professional sport

Much existing sport research subscribes to a dominant performance narrative which prescribes sacrifice, dedication, discipline and an overriding focus on winning as prerequisites for success in sport. Recently, however, narrative scholars have criticised the performance narrative on the basis of its damaging effects on identity development and psychological well‐being and have identified alternative but silenced life stories among highly successful professional sportspeople. These alternative stories allow athletes to resist the dominant performance narrative and thereby sustain a multi‐dimensional identity and sense of self. My purpose with this paper is to provide some insight into how these narrative processes unfold through an autoethnographic approach which foregrounds particular moments of my own life in sport. Through telling these stories I hope to illuminate processes of identity construction and negotiation in the context of a golf career which included multiple professional tournament wins, two European Master’s Championships and representation of England, Great Britain and Europe.