“It seemed like my fault for wanting to become a mother …”—Experiences and perceptions related to motherhood in women with severe mental illness

Abstract

Background

Women with mental illness experience unique challenges during their motherhood. However, little is known about their own perceptions and unmet needs in the process of childbearing. A qualitative study design with a social constructivist paradigm was used to explore lived experiences of mothers with severe mental illness (SMI) during the childbearing period.

Methods

Semi-structured in-depth interviews were conducted with 30 mothers recruited through purposive sampling. This was followed by inductive thematic analysis. Rigor was established through triangulation and respondent validation. This paper focuses on the perceptions during the pre-conception and pregnancy period.

Results

Emergent categories (themes) were thoughts/feelings about childbearing (ambivalence about being a mother/having a baby, fantasies about childbearing/rearing, guilt about pregnancy), the impact of mental illness (stigma, effect of symptoms on their self-care including healthcare, concerns about effect of medications on fetus), unmet needs (lack of emotional support, unanswered doubts about effects of illness on pregnancy, child and motherhood, wanting to be considered as “potential mothers”), and caregivers' reactions (discrimination, anger/abuse, selective support). The centrality of motherhood and balancing the “dual role” of a patient and mother were the overarching categories after analysis.

Conclusion

Mothers with SMI prize motherhood but navigate through it with various adverse experiences. The results of this study, grounded in their voices, provide critical insights for service and policy provisions in perinatal psychiatry.