Necessary Pains

Saghar L. Naghib
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The mind of a woman in labor is unparalleled in both strength and vulnerability. In this personal essay, I recount how I harnessed my memories about my mother and grief over her recent passing to cope with the isolation and pain of my labor and delivery on June 2, 2020—what became known as Blackout Tuesday—during the COVID-19 pandemic. As a first-time mother, being dropped off at the hospital while in pre-labor and walking through the double doors alone triggered the memories of entering the intensive care unit at the hospital where my mother died—the last time I had been in a hospital. It was a reminder that some spaces have room only for one. With my memory as my companion and labor support until my husband and I were permitted to be reunited hours after both testing negative for the virus, I navigate the meaning and purpose of pain as I push closer to giving life. This essay emerged during my first year of motherhood, out of my grapple with giving life while healing from my mother’s death, to gradually unveil my long-sought proverbial bend in the road.
必要的痛苦
临产妇女的心灵无论在力量上还是在脆弱上都是无与伦比的。在这篇个人文章中,我讲述了我如何利用对母亲的记忆和对她最近去世的悲伤来应对2020年6月2日分娩和分娩的孤立和痛苦,这一天被称为COVID-19大流行期间的“停电星期二”。我是第一次当妈妈,临产时被送到医院,独自走过双扇门,这让我想起了母亲去世的那家医院的重症监护室——那是我最后一次住医院。它提醒我们,有些地方只能容纳一个人。我的记忆是我的伴侣和分娩支持,直到我和丈夫在病毒检测呈阴性的几个小时后被允许团聚,我摸索着痛苦的意义和目的,离生命越来越近。这篇文章是在我做母亲的第一年写的,在我从母亲的去世中恢复过来的同时,我在努力地给予生命,逐渐揭示了我长期寻求的众所周知的道路转折。
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